Uncut & Down, Down

Sorry it's been awhile. Had password problems. Every time I tried to change my info to gmail it refuses me. I would really like to change it, because it would be easier. Siiiigh. Anyway, new ones!

Uncut~

Classified in the classifieds as something more than you pay me for
And the distance we keep drawing in imperfect lines in the sand have shown me up
And the loneliness drives me into the arms of the windy nights that never satisfy
Because with him so far away how can anything satisfy my needs

And I know you've already forgotten what I brought out in you
Good and bad, because I know I fell for you for you
And loved you imperfections and all

You're my closest memory and you stagger in at one a.m.
And I get to drinking just to block that hole you left in your wake
It goes down harsh, but it's deserved because I can't move on
I curl up in the arms of the windy night knowing it can't satisfy

Foolishly I cling to a memory I've probably doctored a thousand times
Knowing you are everything I know could never be placed in front of me
Because I'm aching for the emperor's platter, but I'm stuck in a buffet line
You're a diamond and I'm the rough, or the uncut ruby, rugged but possibly beautiful
Just undiscovered

I look the part, act the part, of a damsel
But you were just in more distress than I
And who was I to upstage your needs?
So I am now classified in the classifieds as something more than is seen by the naked eye
But what you are missing with your eyes is the most important
It's the clearest, but I'm left out of focus
And why would you waste your time with me?

Down, Down~

Take it down a notch
Take it down a little further
Because I can't take your squeal
I can't take your angry peal
And this fighting is just over-whelming

And I see it going down, down
Fading into the carpet with words of anger
Words that seep and can't be taken back
And colors swell in the corridor

I see it as pointless and vain
I see you just want attention for your pain
And I am unwilling to stroke the willing ego
Any, any more
Because it's a waste of time

Please take it down another notch
I'm starting to see things
And my head is spinning
And the room is reeling with your stubborn mask
Of making it your solitary task
Of ruining me

And I see it going down, down
The end is near
And the carpet is soaked with beer
Because you couldn't take no more
And I am a mean, mean woman
And you are an angry bore

I let you make believe you made me happy
Because I didn't want to lose you into the night
Foolish, because I needed that space I was unwilling to give myself
Because when you're around all we do is fight

Sunflower

I put on my best for you
A sundress yellow to match my hair
And I would fly into your arms
If I felt it would mean anything
As quickly as my legs would carry me unless you resist me

I met you on that summer day with a sunflower in my hands
I was carrying it around like a fool
Just to remind me of someone else
Who had been gone for so long
And who were you to appear all rugged in front of me
Asking the obvious, "Why does such a tiny girl carry such a big flower?"

I put on my best for you
A blue pair of high heels to match my eyes
My sweetest smile
Hiding my brokenhearted eyes behind a sparkling pair
I didn't want you to know how hurt they had been

I met you on that summer day with a sunflower in my hands
I was carrying it around like a fool
Just to remind me of someone else
Who had been gone for so long
And who were you to appear all rugged in front of me
Asking the obvious, "Why does such a tiny girl carry such a big flower?"

Free to fly, free to run
Carefree
Free to be me
When you look at me
But still I color coordinate my world to suit you
Too suit the pursuit of your happiness
Because I want to be what you want

Further & Left Alone in the World

Further~

I fell from the sky and straight into your lap
You caught me like a fire fighter looking a little confused
And you were beautiful in my eyes
Maybe just because you rescued me
Or maybe because if I hadn't fallen you would be unattainable

And I touch every part of you
Prying as best as I can into your thoughts
And they don't make much sense to me
But I figure one day they may

You brought the music back into my heart
And then faded away like a beautiful sunset
Tell me the truth
Why can't I have a bigger piece of you?

I stood in the bar my eyes searching for you
In the midst, in the perfection of dim lighting and beer pitchers
But you wouldn't make your way to me
Because there were just too many distractions
Too many brighter and better than me

I wish I could paint
I'd paint your beauty on a canvas
In stone blues, grays, and blacks
Like you're further away than I can imagine

I fell from the sky into your strong arms
And now I beg you not to drop me
I should take you in
In my heart
In my dreams
Deeper & Deeper into me
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Left Alone in the World

I asked her what the truth was
On the wrong day
Her day of reckoning
And her answer left me spinning where I stood
She said it was simple
And complicated all at the same time
It was a busy world
That wouldn't slow down
And couldn't end well
With all the fighting that was going on and on

He had left her all alone
Once more
And she couldn't function without him
Not yet, not in the here and now
All she could see was his face
All she could remember was the look he'd given her as he turned to shut the door
The intensity in his eyes
Grabbing at the strings attaching her heart to his fingers
She felt alone
She felt torn
She felt alive with ache
At least she felt something

Dealing with my own depravity
I asked what it all meant
And she laughed at me bitter
yet, still sweet
Her harmony was more than I could take

Life isn't easy here
Life isn't deeper than you can make it
She was speaking riddles and as of yet I barely understood
I just knew there was more, more than she could say
More than she could see

Left there when he was far
She was unable to move on
Not being lead
I held her hand, just because I saw she needed it
I let her sit there and cry
I let her sit there and cry
Drank our sorrows over the disappointment with tea and sympathy

Life isn't easy here
Life isn't deeper than you can make it
She was speaking riddles and as of yet I barely understood
I just knew there was more, more than she could say
More than she could see