Colder After Goodbye

My fateful goodbye rings in each of our ears
But I could never love you like you love me
And you deserve better
A girl I don't even want to be
A girl so removed from me
And I blinded you with my coy words that no boy could resist
And did I waste it on you?
When you were so obviously taking hold of me

And if you didn't rack the metals of my heart with your soft touch
If I weren't so afraid of wrong love
If I didn't hide beneath the ground waiting for a decent burial
Broken-hearted, jaded, lost doll
Clinging to a man of tomorrow of all that I want
Would there be a lag within space and time, with a you and an I?
Though you just weren't it
And the guilt rattles me, because I broke you
I can't fix it with anything more than a lie
I won't, I promise, I won't

And I'm buried in inconsistencies
A rot with loneliness
And I'm so used to clinging to the next thing
That won't last
Even that now seems tiresome
And all I want is sleep
Under these sheets of grief
Satin, full of sickening grace
Because you can't let go
And now I'm gone, the spot where my warm body was is slowly getting colder