Selfish Spirit Let Me Be

I could detach myself from your pleasure schemes
And maybe I should, because I am always exhausted
And you are never here
And I never wanna be there
Since there doesn't include you anymore
And all these words are so awkward
When you try to pretend we were never lovers
And I mean nothing to you
But you'll keep saying what I need to hear
To keep me near
And I am a fool, fool, for you

Let's share this pumpkin soup and despair
Are you telling me your dirty secrets, since you can't quite let her in yet
And I know the deepest part of you, the you that you fear would scare her away
And I am a tender piece of meat that you've beaten too thin
Now you think it's time to dine
And I must say I go down well with wine
Wine and a mourning for c'est la vie

I lost my optimism in a paper cup
I can't retrieve it without swallowing your backwash
I just can't see how it's worth it
Because I am feeling ragged
Your smile isn't as becoming
Tattooed on your face
As a lie
I spoon feed to myself
To keep up my strength
Could it be you are running away from something I only remind you of?
If so, I am so sorry
I always feared what my loyalty, my honesty would do to you
I know you aren't used to girls like me

I should set you free, selfish spirit let me be!
Vanquish my anguish as I hide in this tree
Like a child throwing apples from the sky
And giggling as you dodge after I nail you in the head
You bring out the naughty child in me
I should set you free, selfish spirit let me be!
Let me again breathe and bask in sanity