2 new ones :)

Ballet Toes

When I make a movement the world looks up
And I never know how perfect I flow
Until someone tells me
And then I feel like a china doll
Begging you to be gentle and not break me

Lilac dreams cloud my memory
Porcelain hands, so pale, reaching
And I twirl slowly like a ballerina
On tiptoes, spinning, balanced on top of a jewelry box
One, two, One, two
Steady

When I make a movement the world looks up
So many eyes and I am self-conscious
I try to block them out and only look at your eyes
Encouraging
And then I feel like a china doll
Begging you to be gentle and not break me

And my body flows in and out
Graceful even when I feel so clumsy
Knowing you would certainly like to catch me

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New

Beautifully youthful
Still unaffected by the harshness of the world
And I miss when I was a girl
Like you, so innocent, so full of hope
And sometimes I glimpse that girl in me again
Giggly, wiggly, looking for the best things

Who will I talk to now? Now that you've moved on?
Who is going to understand where I come from?
There was a connection that sang to my very bones
And I would like to keep hearing the tune

I want to scream on the top of my lungs
For all to hear
And know just how peaceful I feel
Lying here, happy, just listening to the sweet sounds of the world
And you only see me as sad, never as hopeful
Just a struggle to the new
Just a struggle to the new

Keep playing your song over me
You turn to me, and we just know
We just feel it ooze over us
Taking over our hearts
Playing like guitar strings in perfect tune
Just a struggle to the new
Forgetting the old
Just a struggle for the new

Searching

Sorry it's been awhile. I was writing something the other day and before I could finish it the whole thing was deleted and I felt it was my best work in awhile. So I took a week to be sad about it, but today decided I needed to get something down on paper. I don't like it as much as other works, but it has some good parts! :)

Searching

There were words floating above us
Some seemed so attainable
Like you could reach up and there they would be
Taken for the touch, the taste, the satisfaction
In knowing if we wanted to we could make it better

There was no goodbye again
It was just a here and then disappear
And you would think I would get used to it
As it keeps happening
But at first I thought you were different
But you were the same I was just convincing myself of lies

And I blended in with the carpet
My feet, my hands, gentle bristles people could dig their toes into
Cross me with their muddy boots
But I liked it that way, because I didn't know any other way
Not around it, not through it, was just it

I miss the rain
The heat of it that could soak me to the bone
Soak me to my soul
Remind me that things can always anew
Like when the sun returns after a mysterious journey
Always happy to see it again

And the Loneliness likes to crawl into my sheets at night
And I hear her giggle beside me
Clear as a bell, but as menacing as you might think
I can't help but want to reach out only to find air
Air that's too stifling to breathe
But I can't seem to ask her to leave

I miss the rain
The heat of it that could soak me to the bone
Soak me to my soul
Show me the light at the end of the tunnel
Because my bones are sore and my eyes are tired from searching